Baby Bear has been having increasingly worse mucus and blood in his diapers over the past two weeks. The “seediness” of his diapers is decreasing and more diarrhea like consistency is increasing. In the past few days he has been getting increasingly more fussy and uncomfortable. Yesterday, he allowed me to put him down for one nap, otherwise he would scream his small little head off, I held him all day. Even then he fussed and nursed continually. This wasn’t working. Not only am I touched out and stressed but poor Little Cub is reacting to Mama being grumpy, not being able to play with her, and having to deal with a screaming brother all day.
People keep telling me that everything I am seeing can be normal, that I am worried about nothing or to not stress about things yet, and to give it more time. I remember those same statements being said with Little Cub too. And they are true. Yes, mucus can be totally normal (or on a range of normal) for babies. Blood can be normal too. Fussing can and is normal. Eyes swelling up and congestion- all normal. But when you combine them all together? Not so normal.
It is possible that I am reliving more of the trauma that we went through with Little Cub? Yes. Perhaps I am seeing things where there is nothing wrong. It is possible. But my mama gut is telling me that isn’t the case.
The time has come to try an elimination diet. Time to figure out what was making him sick. Today, I start that diet. Ugh.
Last night I ate the last of my Enjoy Life chocolate chip cookies (top 8 free), I had chips, I drank chocolate coconut milk. I basically enjoyed a few things that I won’t be able to have for…well, I don’t know how long. It might be a week or it might be several years depending on how long I nurse this little man. It felt like my last meal.
I dread this diet. Being hungry and wanting to eat food you personally can eat but that makes your little one sick is just not fun. It is a pretty big sacrifice. But isn’t that what parenting is all about? Sacrifice, pain, hardship all mixed in with brilliant, priceless, wonderful times that fill your heart with so much love you had no idea that a human body could love so much.
So here’s to grass-fed beef, eggs, olive oil, salt, potatoes, zucchini, chard, a little bit of corn, and some yet undecided fruit or two, which will be my diet for the next week or two. Then if things are looking better I will start adding food back in. If things are worse, then I will switch out some items and try again.
I am the mother two wonderful and Rare children and am honored to be the step mama to two awesome teenagers.